A New Decade A Deeper Focus

Sitting here in a cafe, I sipped on my tea, and observed everything that was moving around me. The coffee being made, the beautiful woman sitting next to me, the customers walking in and out deeply focused on their individual tasks. As I sat patiently and felt deeply in my body I opened up a space to reflect on the past year, and the past decade. What I came to recognize was nothing mind blowing or new. It was actually deeper. A deeper sense of peace, of clarity, that everything which has happened over the past 10 years has been beautifully orchestrated to this moment right NOW! Then tears of joy and sadness began to stream from my face. Joy for whats happening right now, joy for whats to come, joy for every life I have connected with. And sadness, sadness for some of the choices I made, the words I said, the actions I took part in. Yet without those experiences I wouldn't be the man who I am today and the man who I am becoming.

10 Years ago I was competing collegiately for cross country and track. I didn't care about school, the education felt pointless to me and not practical for how life truly is. So I dug deep and focused all my energy on athletics. Partying through the summer, chasing after girls, playing mind and emotional games to only loose it all. I tell you what, it was fun when it was there, yet looking back now, I see energy and actions that were misplaced. I was doing everything for me. I didn't care about any ones feelings or how my actions would affect another. I wanted the biggest excitement. I got it, on both ends - pure bliss and absolute destruction. It wasn't until I moved to Portland that things began to change. I wanted to take more responsibility for who I am and how I show up in the world. I WANTED to know, and FEEL who I truly am. Why I am on the Planet and what I can do to support myself and others! When you start asking the right questions - the answers come quickly. My life picked up quickly, I began forgiving myself for every action I was ashamed of. I began speaking deep truths, and opening my mind to new concepts, ideas, actions, and lifestyles. With all of these new possibilities I began to piece together how I want my life to be. IT IS STILL A WORK IN PROGRESS! I am proud of that.

After all this time I have become aware that I can focus on myself, while still respecting and honoring another person. Listening to what they are experiencing, feeling what they are feeling, and offering assistance and support WHEN I am invited to.

I have become aware that I can create whatever life I would like, and it takes a little time for that life to root in and open. There are uncomfortable situations in the growing process, and there are also beautiful, joyful, blissful situations.

I have become more and more aware of my gifts and how I can help others. I am aware that my presence can be intense and it is something that I am fine tuning daily. What I do know is results happen! Change happens. A deepening and awaking happens. Responsibility for self roots in and the world around changes to match how you are feeling. I know because I live this experience daily.

The next 10 years I have big goals set. I have foundations placed to support the movement I am making! I am looking forward to sharing that journey with you. I invite you into the experience if you are ready to grow!